Christmas Eve.

I love Christmas. We are going to the Christmas Eve service tonight for the first time since we have been here. We are usually out of town. It has been so nice to be home and just hang out with my boys. Darrin has been off and that is so nice. I just want to say thanks to my mom for buying the nerf guns really, really enjoy being shot at while unaware. And love the shot in the bum when I am trying to get away from being shot. And that Darrin has enjoyed the guns as much as the children. Again thanks mom.

Went to Walmart yesterday with Ginger really what were we thinking. But it was not so bad because we did not want to rush home so time was ours to kill. And the wait in line helped with that. People are so fun at Christmas and their joy shows on their faces when at the Walmart. Joy and peace rained down. I had many beautiful Christmas moments at the Walmart. Happy. Also for the first time in my life ate a banana while in the store I got a little light head and had to sit on the floor and eat the banana people looked at me a little funny but my blood sugar was a little low and I needed the banana. Don't judge me to harshly.

So my mother-in-law is coming up on Christmas day, I am cooking, Just saying. Then she will take the kids with her for a few days then they are going to spend a few days with my mom. Alone at last with my man. Fun times. Need some ideas of something fun to do in the big city while they are gone. Any suggestions?

Well Merry Christmas to all and to all a wondrous New Year.

Lately.....

I finished my class today and I really want to check to see if my grade is in but that would be crazy I just finished like and hour or so ago. But very glad to check that class off my list and move on to the next one. I have learned to trust my self and keep going and that I am pretty smart and I hope I can make sure my kids know how smart they are so they can pursue college a little younger then I did. But I do know that this is the best time for me to do this and I am ever so grateful and I think appreciate it so much now.

So do you every feel like you are not growing and then all of the sudden you feel like you are growing and you wonder if it shows. But since I am growing I don't really need to know if it shows or not because I feel it. I am happy and I hope more patient. Also less anger and maybe a little more understanding of others. I never saw myself as judgemental but I really was on the inside and the more I see my own sin the less I look at others because I understand the struggle we all have. I am just so grateful that Jesus did what He did it is so wonderful.

Things I am looking forward to now that I have 3 weeks off.

1. Knitting when ever I want to.

2.Not studying (although my teacher told me what our first 2 chapters are for my next class but I will not read them until the week before I go back.)

3.Baking all my favorite Christmas foods.

4. Relaxing.

5. Reading a book (sorry I don't have time for Twilight) just for fun.

6. Seeing my family.

7.Christmas Eve at church (what day is that on? that is what I thought when I saw the church sign because they always put the date. I get a little confused sometimes).

8. Being with my boys for 3 weeks and not having to get up and get ready. See # 4.

9. Being with my husband who will be off a lot because he said he would.

10. The kids going to my Mom's for a few days after Christmas. See # 9 Fun times.

Blogging about facebook?

So facebook is fun and I haven't blogged in a while because I like facebook. So it rained last night the creek at the park was really full. Missy I had a super, fabulous time last night. To fun. I am so glad you did it, good times. I really need to study and am ready to not have that hovering thought, at least not for 3 weeks until spring semester starts. Thanks for putting up with me talking about it I can fixate a little bit. I try not to but it is a little consuming. Anyway I can't wait until next week and baking and doing crafty Christmas things with the kids. To much fun. And Christmas with the family and Advent at church. I think I need an Advent class because I really think that I don't fully get it. I have never had Advent. Anyway maybe somebody has a book that explains it and how it started. I like purple so it is really pretty. I really like the Elf movie I need to watch again. I love all the Elf flair. I in fact love flair it captures a thought really well. Once again blogging about facebook sorry. I need some sunshine I don't like it when it is so dark and blah outside. I am glad that it is not quiet so cold. Feeling a little crazy I just read over what I wrote. I guess I will leave it and not try to make it pretty and eloquent not that I could. Tah Tah for now.

I can't beleive it.

Zachary turned 10 yesterday he was very excited about turning 2 digits. Time goes by so fast. Here are a few pic's he is having a friend over this weekend that was all he wanted so easy. He also would not let me bring anything up to school he would have been sooo embarrassed to have his Mom come up there. Again I am okay with that so easy. Also getting a 10 year old to look serious in a picture next to impossible. Happy Birthday Zachary!!!

Thanksgiving can start.

So I saw the movie last night and it was good. I still don't fully get it but okay Edward is dreamy, and fun and really protective. And it was good.

Moving on won't you join me. We just got to Mom's house. The boys have left for a hike and I am thinking about a nap. I think my mom's house makes me sleepy. I always feel like taking a nap here. She is making lunch/supper so called it lupper if you like. Then some TV. It can be very relaxing here. I love not having to cook and enjoying good food is always great.

So I think I will eat some and sleepy some and repeat it all over again tomorrow. Later. Do vampires have a catchy goodbye phrase? I would like to use it if there is one.

And so it begins.

They are calling me the vampires. (Mom this is funny I will explain in detail when I see you) They are speaking through my friends, sometimes a whisper , sometimes a yell. Sometimes I ........
just hear them and want to know them better. I'm scared!! I know they are sweet vampires and in return for my soul I will live for eternity with Edward (said in a dream voice and a far away look in.........
my eye). The Cullen family is supposed to be so wonderful and I think they will like me and accept
me. I think it is the right thing to do but I am conflicted and worried that I might be making the......
wrong choice. I must go now and fix dinner it maybe the last time for a while because once it
starts ........everything else must stop. Should I go tonight, should I? I think I must the voice are getting louder. (I just talked to Ginger)

Reallyto excited!!!

Really I am out of school until a week from Monday!!! I am to happy although I have a huge test the day I get back I think I am pretty ready for it just some major reviewing in my future. Right now I am blogging and giving each kid a practice spelling test. Can you say multi-tasking. Really I just want it over with as soon as possible I am so not in the mood. I think I need apple-cider vinegar, I think it well cure me I am not really sick but I think it will pep me up and make me super skinny. And maybe skipping Thanksgiving would help. I love the holidays but I really like to eat to much. I need to start running again but I really don't like it to much all that bouncing and such. But I think I need to and get the weights out, the kids lost one which makes me a little crazy. It takes to long with just one. Anyway off tho church in a little bit. Zachary is taking the catechism class in January and one of us has to go with him which I am super excited about I need to learn it to. I think I may have a little to much caffeine I feel all wired and squirrely.

See my peeps later. I have to jet.

So had a great weekend and I am wondering if this is what getting old feels like. I have been a little tired lately, I mean I normal only need a little sleep and I am good. I enjoy a nap when I can, but I can not seem to catch up this days. Oh well maybe it is that I have a little cold and and have been going a little to much. But whatever the cause I wonder if this is a glimpse of oldness.

So glad I got to see Kim this weekend and her friend Diane. Does she blog? She should I enjoyed her company very much. I so wanted to go out to Pagie's Sat. but the tiredness thing won and I could only lay on the couch and watch tv. And since I try not to blog about it to much Roll Tide. I have been a big fan all my days and it is nice to have a good season. Hope it all goes well to the end.

School is good just one more test then the final. I am all signed up for Spring classes Bio 202 and Math 116. This is my first time taking 2 class at once but now that I have learned how to study I think I will do okay. I should be ready to apply to the nursing program by Spring of next year. I hope to get about 4 more general courses out of the way first. Because I could actually apply for Fall next year but it will be much easier this way. The biggest thing I have learned is to be patient I don't like to be patient. (Picture me stopping my feet and clenching my fist) I want it now. But I will just have to wait and do the smart thing instead of the fast thing. So I really should be studying but I can't seem to motivate myself lately I work better when I am under pressure and we have fall break before we have our next test so maybe later this week I will feel more pressure, maybe not.

I think I will veggie until I have to go get the kids. Peace Out. Hollar

Yearbook to much fun. the scare part is the big hair ones are alot like my senior pictures.

I tried.

I so wanted to vote yesterday but alas I didn't have 3 hours yesterday to do it. Well I could have in the morning but I had hope that the line would lessen it did not. So I thought it would probably turn out the way it did. So no real surprise. Anyway life goes on and I think that it was historical and wild and I really love our country where the people are heard and things always swing back in forth between both parties and nothing really changes.

Changing topics. I have been getting really bad leg cramps and don't know why. Any suggestions?

Christmas music already? Really? My kids asked why isn't there Thanksgiving music. So maybe the songs would be like. Eating Pie, Oh My or I Love Turkey Yes I Do. But alas we don't. I like the word alas it makes me sound so smarticus.

Anyway one last Lab test and one last Lecture test and then a final. I now understand Spring break I never did before not the whole drinking like crazy but the whole laying on the beach and resting thing.

I need to bake cookies. I can't wait to do that too. And sweet potato bread. Love it.

Eric's Birthday

River living

Greetings from the river. The boys and I came down to see Mom and visit this weekend. They got out of school at noon on Friday and are out of school Monday so it worked out to be a good weekend to come. The boys and my step-dad, Riley, are out on a hike their favorite part about coming here. And the fact that my Mom always fries something. Today it is pork chops and let me say she fries up a mean pork chop. Also on the menu Au Gratin potatoes and lima beans. I love my Mama's cooking. Also I love I don't have to cook. It is so wonderful. This morning slept till 7:30 then ate and watched tv then the boys left for their hike and I layed back down. Kinda rested but not really sleep but laying there was wonderful.

So the agenda for today.
1. Eat fried pork chops.
2. I am thinking a nap after that pork chops make me sleepy.
3. Watch Alabama play Tennessee Roll Tide!!
4. Stay up late and watch tv.
5. Sleep some more.
6. Oh and eat cake my mom also made a cake. I will fit that in between naps and bedtime. Oh if only I knew when, my schedule is so full.
7. Miss Darrin. He had to stay home and work.
8. I think I will go I need a snack.

Random

Its cold. I am such a crazy self-centered person I really need to retire in Florida because I like 75 and sunny. I don't care for 42 in the morning. I have such a hard time getting up when it is dark and cold. I know, I know I long for fall and winter but I feel my oldness creeping up because I need a sweater to go to the store.

School is good I had a big test yesterday and now have a little break before I have to learn all the muscles in the body. Really do I need to know all of them? Just a few would surely be enough. I mean I am not going to be a doctor for Pete's sake.

Why do children think eye drops burn? They don't they are just cold. Eric's eye was a little red this morning so I put a few drops in. You would think I was putting acid in his eye. Okay just had the thought I should probably work on my bedside manner. Can I tell a patient to just man up and quit whining.

I am all alone the kids are at school and the dog went to get a haircut. I haven't taken him in forever and he really needed it. But it is so quite here without anybody.

I miss Darrin he has been working so much and well I miss him. Hopefully once the airport is done he will have some time.

Went to Ginger's last week and Melissa came over. Let me say the kids did great but man 3 year olds make a lot of noise and demand so mush attention. They just don't understand leave us be we are talking. How fast we get used to where we are at but I don't want to because I want to be a Grandmother who enjoys the loud and craziness of kids.

Thinking about going to mom's this weekend.Pretty sure me and the boys are going to. We haven't seen her since August and the boys are very excited about seeing her.


Plans for today.
1.Do laundry really that is everyday but I am going to mom's so everything must be washed!!
2. Study really it is my life and for the most part I love it,
3. Try to eat better today have not been doing very good with this lately.
4. GO walk. okay already did this but I like to put one thing on the list I can instantly check off.
5. Relax a little nobody's here so I can.

Farm, Retreat, and School

First its 85 I know others have blogged about it but really, 85 I want to wear a sweater!! NOW!! Okay I just watched Fred on Crissy blog so I had to whiny. So last week was busy Paige and I went up to school and made a pumpkin arch for Eric's class room. Then study, study, study I am about half-way through this semester and can't wait to be done. I am still maintaining my A average but I had a big lab test Monday and I think I did okay but it was hard.

Friday I went on a field trip with Eric to Old Baker's Farm, seen one pumpkin patch you've seen them all. But it was fun and well done and I got a pumpkin and Eric did too.

Also the ladies retreat was this weekend and we had a great time. It was about beginning a help-mate to your husband. It was also about our role in church and I needed to hear it. I think sometimes I forget that I needed to learn how to be apart of the body. So what I learned this weekend is that I am a pretty good help-mate and of course can always improve. But I think I am somewhat at a lost as to what my role at church is. So I am going to pray with intention and ask God to show me. Which is scary because I know He will answer me and what if I don't know how to do what He ask me.

Sunday.

I love Sunday I remember when church used to feel like a chore and now I just love going and being in the fellowship with the Lord. The boys were just outside playing football that lasted about 5 minutes. Something about mosquitoes? Really? Anyway I have gotten a lot done this weekend. Darrin had to work all weekend poor fella. He has only taken off like 2 days this year so he promised I will be sick of him soon, he is taking off every Friday in December and the week of Christmas and the week of Thanksgiving. I don't think I will but you never know.

Yesterday the boys and I went to the Leeds park and collected leaves and pine combs and what ever they like that was fall like. And I made a fall decoration for the coffee table. We had a great time. I love fall.

Well once again I must go study and I am having a better attitude about it. I have a vocabulary quiz tomorrow.

Life chioces.

So maybe you know know how much I struggle with decision. Like staying in school, I like and am doing fairly well so what is the problem? I was walking at the park this morning and I realized that I first don't trust God to take care of me and my family and second I feel selfish for doing it. I mean it is not cheap but worth it in the long run. That all sounds good but is it right? I mean it tell me is it? I have been known to make a decision just to make one because not making it drives me crazy. Right or wrong is sometimes not even a factor. Just need to stop the endless going over it in my head. I have to make it stop. So I vow to go with the flow follow what I have always wanted and be a nurse. Their that felt better. Do you think it was the right choice? I doubt already, so maybe the doubt is my struggle and not my choice because God is in control no matter what I do so surrendering to that control is what I need to do. Right? Right. Paige said something yesterday that made me think she said you just want to do something right (thanks for listening) and yes but I really am starting to believe that something is nursing I am just impatient and doubt that I can do it. So I am going to stay the course and follow my heart and not give up on myself or God. I just needed to vent.

Kids.

Eric was sick yesterday. Stomach thing, vomiting. Yeah. So he was doing good then about 5:00p.m. the other part of the stomach virus started. Yeah. So he is home today again. Zachary wakes up this morning with a flaming red eye, pink eye is to mild of a description. Yeah. So he is home too. Which is really not bad I like having them home but I have school today so my sweet understanding husband went in really early so he could come home and watch Eric he doesn't know about Zachary yet. So I hope this is them building up their immunity and getting ready for winter. Will see. Here's hoping I have built up my immunity and don't need any help with that, thank you very much. No car line today that makes me smile. Later.

Funniest husband in the world and a 104.

So my husband is so funny. I was so surprised by what he did and he enjoyed getting me. So I think he may have a future in comedy. Who knew? Okay I did know he really is very funny.

So I spent all weekend studying for a test I had today. I think I did okay it was pretty hard. But on a crazy note I made a 104 on my lab. test. That is not a type-o a 104 I really can't believe it. If you would have asked me I would have thought I got a C maybe but I only missed 1 and she gave out points( she used a big word like that started with an s?) so I maybe a little full off myself until Wednesday when I get my next test back. But until then I am off to learn the names of the bones in your head. Really I though there was just one the skull but it turns out there are a lot more. Are you scared I maybe your nurse one day? I am. Well see I hope I can remember everything I need to remember.

It came last night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tragedy, Grief and Sorrow have covered the Nold house as the unthinkable has happened. I have used my excellent hacking ability(along with the knowledge of my wife Heather's password) to post this sad story to all of her loyal readers.

As many of you may know from her recent blog posts. Zachary brought home a pet crab earlier this week and Heather is deathly afraid of it as well as birds and bugs and bats and rats and cats. OK, she is not afraid of cats but she is allergic to them. I had insisted it would be safe to stay at home despite Heather's constant well vocalized fear since Zachary had brought home his pet “Mr. Crab”.

I WAS IN ERROR!!! Last night was the longest and most horrific night of our lives. At approximately 2 AM the now GINORMOUS(her favorite word) fiddler crab broke through our locked bedroom door. I had neglected to purchase solid-core wood doors and deadbolts for the interior of our house, again my bad. Anyway as some of you know I am a runner. NOT a fast runner but I am much faster than Heather when attacked by a mutated fiddler crab. Once the onslaught began I dashed to the boy's rooms with Heather close behind me, I then scooped them up as if they were still infants and fled out of a rear window. It was only when I got outside that I realized that she was not behind us. Being prudent (and not wanting to orphan our children) I fled jumping into my jeep. I drove away as I called 911. They dispatched first responders to deal with the monster crab.

Once the crack (as in expert) St. Clair county SWAT team had subdued it with non life-threatening force, it is a living creature and my son’s pet after all. The Moody FD used the jaws of life to remove the humongous thing's oddly and still proportionately over-sized claw from Heather's neck. Nearly lifeless she was flown to UAB. A team of highly skilled local surgeons was prepared to do the life saving repairs of the wound s to her neck. They would be assisted by world class surgeons from the Mayo Clinic, Mercy General and Caesar’s Palace who had been flown in at the request of the Governor. We do know people who know people, but I digress. The surgery was touch and go until by surprise that dashing Dr. Patrick Dempsey from TV’s Grey’s Anatomy evidently in town for some barbeque stopped by and saved the day. I am sure she would have preferred George Clooney but beggars can’t be choosers.

I am sure you will be glad to know that Heather has recovered quite quickly and should be walking around a couple of minutes. The only thing that you may notice is she will be wearing a lot of turtle necks. But with this cooler weather she probably would have anyway.

One final note:

The CDC has ran a quick test and apparently fiddler crabs can mutate in to monsters when exposed to a single droplet of gross pig preserving formaldehyde accidentally flung onto dried plankton. I recall noticing last week that Heather’s laboratory safety glasses were right by Mr. Crab’s food supply.

It could happen, right?

Oh and I change her password. ;-)

P.S. I hate to report that early this morning Mr. Crab was found dead. Officials have yet to determine if it was related to the force used to subdue it earlier today.

Could it have been murder? Only time may tell.

The crab is here.

The crab is here. It has one giant claw and one little claw. Why? It looks so weird. I don't think I will sleep well tonight I just realized our doors are a little raised up he can get me even if I close the door!!!

Test, Book Fair and a Crab.

So I have not blogged in awhile. I haven't felt very bloggy lately. Anyhoo school is ok. I took my first big test Monday and my next one is this Monday. The main thing I am learning lately(with God's patience and love of course) is that I have to learn to be happy where I am right now. Not happy once I get this, or that or when this finally happens. Because finding contentment is not about making a list and checking things off and saying now I am truly fulfilled and totally satisfied. The realization that obtaining the goal is not the happiness. It is trusting God no matter where I am and finding my happiness in Him. So I find great peace in that. God doesn't have a check list for me He loves me right now all the time and always will.

I also find that I lack a certain motivation. I think it is a genetic mutation (no offense Mom) but I just can't seem to find a lot of reason to do things. I realize as well that I work better under a deadline. I need a fire burning at my feet so that I can get done.

I helped at Zachary's school Tuesday and Wednesday at the book fair. Not to much fun but I did get to see Zachary's teacher in the hall and somewhat connect a little. I need to feel connected but he is in a big boy school and I have limited involvement with his classroom so I am helping at the school and hope that a least makes me feel better and more connected.

Also say a little prayer for me Zachary is bring home a crab from his class room today. I am slightly terrified. I DO NOT like wild animals. That scare me a lot and so I am trying to be a great Mom and let him bring it home but I hope it does not escape and attack me. What if it crawls on me while I sleep!!!! I mean it could pinch me really hard. Sorry I needed to whinny a little thanks for letting me.

I also asked Zachary what he was going to name the crab. He said we should do that as a family. So pray the thing doesn't die, or maybe pray it does. I know that was a little selfish. Wild animals you know.

Well I am off to study. I know you are shocked I mean I don't have a deadline the test is not until Monday. I thought I would try something novel and get a head start.

Tuna and Mayo. Thick white mayo. That was just for you Missy.

Makes sense.

So I finally feel like my school is making sense and then them bring up atoms and protons and electrons. Some are positive some are negative blah, blah not interested at all. But I will figure it out and learn it but I want be to happy about it. Eric had Grandparents day at school today (thanks Hallmark for coming up with that one) Nancy (Darrin's mother) came up and it was very sweet probably a little to much pressure for the teacher and room mom (thanks Paige there was so not enough food, just kidding old people have to worry about their blood sugar they don't eat much). Anyhoo it was really sweet and Eric loved showing off his room. He made something for Nancy and Gingey,(I will bring it when we come down Mom).

Why is it still so hot? Can not wait to feel the cool winds of Fall.

I read the bible today, I know hold your applause, but this new bible study is very good and I read the next thing on the verses list. It was very good. God's glory is awesome and John 16 is really neat how Jesus shares His glory with us. Much enjoyed.

Well I guess I am off to study and help the kids with homework.

Labor day, Pigs, and kids.

So been way busy lately with school and family. We had a great, lazy weekend it was nice to just lay around and relax. But Tuesday was here before I knew it. I had my first vocabulary quiz yesterday and I think I did really well on it at least I hope so. I also got to dissect a pig that was fun just a little funky smelling. But seeing the inside of the parts that we are having to remember is helpful. We have a lab test in two weeks and the little pigs stay in the bucket till then can't imagine they will smell any better in two weeks.

Still undecided about changing my major I think to much and normally have to make a decision within 48 hours or I go crazy, but I am trying a new approach and just letting the indecision linger in my mind. Very hard to do, maybe I am growing in my patience. Doubtful.

I am really enjoying the Wednesday night class about God's glory. It is pretty awesome. I struggle with reading the bible but it really makes me want to because I can see is glory more in the bible than anywhere else.

Zachary is having a hardish time adjusting to school and to remember to bring books home. Not just some books any books. He feels pressure really easily. I see more and more that he is like Darrin in all the wonderful ways like his kind heart and loving nature, but also he is not very organized(the way I think he should so I have to let him find his way and just be helpful) and the ringing bell is just way to much pressure when he is packing up. I am learning through him that it takes him a while to get something and he said last night that " I guess I know that a bomb is not going to go off when the other bell rings so I can take my time a load up my things." That was helpfully to me to understand him better. Mothering changes so much as they get older I always thought that it would get easier but it doesn't the emotional side of it is very challenging, but rewarding all the same. And having Darrin to understand him is priceless. I just have to learn to step back and let Darrin calm me down and not fixate on the little things but see the big picture and that we are shaping a human not just a student.

Well I need to go study my pig parts and human parts. Biology is so fun.

Lazy Day.

So I did not really do anything today. I don't know if I liked it very much. I try to make myself enjoy the kids being gone and I know that with in the next 2 years I will be working and should enjoy it and I kinda did. Luckily I will have a chance to practice more. School is going well the boys are both still enjoying it. I miss them but it is all going great. Eric loves it beyond measure. Zachary is okay with it they are doing more interesting things this week so I think he likes it more. My school is going well I dropped my math class so I could concentrate on biology. It is alot of work and I need an A to apply to nursing. On that note I am considering going into Radiology. It is an Associate Degree and it is a specialized field and that interests me. I have to set up some observation in a radiology department as a prerequisite to taking Radiology so I am hoping that will help me with my decision. I think that it would be fun and a little easier and it want take as long to get my degree. Will see. I wish the rain would stop I went to go walking this morning and it was misty and muggy so I just went to vote, go Joe Lee, and came back home. So glad I have class tomorrow and will get up and do something productive. Later.

Rainy.

I love the rain we have enjoyed it so much this weekend relaxing with each other was much needed.

The Olympics have been very enjoyable lately and I had a few observations.

1. The Olympics is where a big girl can shine. Water Polo girls, Shot put girls, Volleyball girls etc....

2. I want to be a girl who needs 10,000 calories for "training".

3. Rhythmic gymnastics I don't get it. It' a hula hoop, and a ribbon for goodness sake.

4. The swimming was awesome. Also a place for big girls.

5. The diving people need to eat more the Chinese girls look absolutely to skinny. But they sure don't make much splash.

6. Why are they on so late and why must I stay up to watch.

7. Prelim, semi-finals really just skip to the real race.

8. Let the swimmers fix their hair this is the biggest moment of their life and they have wet hair.

9. Why are the outfits so little. The speedo business is only around because of diving. And the beach volleyball really a bikini, they can't wear a shirt and shorts? The gymnast outfit is cut so high?

10. Why is it only every 4 years? I can't wait that long.

So I missed the opening ceremony but I am looking forward to tonight's. I hope it is not on to late.

Will see.

So I had my first A&P class yesterday. The teacher said you pretty much have to get an A in the class to get in to nursing school. NO PRESSURE. So I maybe blogging a little less and studying a whole lot more. The best part is I get to dissect a pig. I know that does not sound fun to many people but I am very excited. I remember in high school the biology teacher getting ready for his AP glass and he was getting the pigs ready for that class. I wanted to be in that class. So now my dream is coming true. Don't be to jealousy. Anyway we ended up having to pay for my biology book and the place I barrow books from didn't have either book except any older edition of my math book so hopefully I can use that one if not I will probably have to drop that class because math books cost even more that biology books. Why do they cost so much? Also nobody had used books so I had to pay full price. Anyway I know it will pay off in the end. Anyway off to take the kids to school and hope that I can use an old math book.

Oh My!!

My computer has been down for about 5 days you never know how much you miss the blog world until you can't get to it. Zach is doing homework now not crazy about homework because I really just want to go to the parties at school and not have to do the hard part like math. I could read to him forever but skip the math. Life is always an adjustment. Anyway they both like school Eric loves it I mean he was singing in the car line "I love school I love school" his teacher is really great, warm and super sweet. I hope to get to know Zach's teacher more in the future. It is still really quite without them here during the day. I mean I painted my toes in the middle of the day how crazy. So I am planning on taking 2 classes myself to keep me busy. It will be my first time taking 2 classes so I hope I can keep up. Anyhoo it is good to have the computer back.

Quite

The boys are officially at school. It is so quite and I don't think I like it to much. I am adjusting. They both went in no problem and I am grateful for that. We got there really early so we could park and I walked them in, the traffic was not so horrible of course I haven't picked them up yet. We'll see.

Got lost looking for the Jeff State campus in Center Point. The roads are so curve and they don't just cut straight through. Birmingham is not like Montgomery I am learning. But I finally found it turned in a book and sold 2 others. Then went to Aldi and was back home by 10:30. Now I have all day to catch up on laundry Yeah.

Signed up, birthaty party, orientation, and a final oh my

I have signed up for a fall class, so decision made. I am never going to say never but I really have always wanted to be a nurse so even though it can seem like forever before I finish I really want to finish so I am. I am growing and learning .

Today we had Eric's birthday party. We went bowling it was very fun. The kids had fun and I think the adults did to. I am in to the destination party. No clean up before or after.

We had Zachary orientation yesterday and Eric's tonight. I liked Zach's teacher she seemed nice and her room was not to busy and full of stuff. It was very neat and organized. I am a little nervous about everything and it comes out by complaining so I am going to try not to do that. I am not very good a asking questions and she didn't really say a lot just if we had any questions. But it will all work out I know he will do fine. Eric can not wait.

Oh almost forgot I also have a final tonight but I have to say I now like math it is always the same it is what it is and does not change. So hopefully I get an A, but I will probably get a B and that is okey dokey with me/

A little sad.

So I finally got up the nerve to call about the job. The position had been filled she thinks. So moving on. I am a little sad but I know that the right thing will come along. Or maybe it already has and I am already doing it. So maybe I have to find contentment in what I am already doing. Who knows. I feel so wishy-washy sometimes. I don't know what I want. Anyway life goes on and I will survive hey-hey.

My Mom is here she got here yesterday and we are going to Big Savers I can't wait. She has never been. And then grocery shopping and school supplies must be bought soon. Waiting on tax free tomorrow. Or tonight at midnight, I think I will sleep and just go tomorrow. And I must study at some point for my final Monday night. To much.

One down a gbillion to go.

Zach made it last night, he didn't come wake us up. He said he did wake up but didn't open his eyes( a little advice from his oh so wise parents) and went back to sleep. So yeah. I always thought that once they were not babies anymore I would sleep again. Don't get me wrong I sleep a lot more then when they were babies but still. Anyway I am glad that we had a the opportunity to share with him the gospel and God's love for him and our own.

I dropped my application off yesterday. I am still amazed at how far things are here. The Board of Ed. is in Ashville. Anyway I would like to share a bit of my insanity with you. Why haven't they called me yet? I had this thought even before I took the application in. Like they could feel my want of the job telepathically. I mean I am so great and really want the job. Can't they tell that from my resume? I am the most impatient person ever. When I get a thought it is all I can think about. I am obsess over it. I plan my life for the next 25 years around something that has not even happen yet. (You know the whole retirement thing). Anyway I know that it is really a lack of trusting God and His plan for me, instead of my plans and what I want Him to do for me. So I am trying to just chill and trust that the best thing for me and the family is what God wants for me and to trust in that. We'll see I guess I will just have to keep working on that one.

Anyway I think we will go to the pool today I mean there are very few pool days left. so toddles for now.

Adivse please.

My 10 year old is having a waking up at night scared out of his mind probably. He has always been a bit scared at night. Scared of robbers breaking in. He sees things moving and thinks he hears things moving. Or a light moving. We have tried many things like a night light, that was to bright and he would come wake us up to tell us he could not sleep because the light was to bright. Bye-Bye night light. The office is right across from him and he would see light from the computer or maybe an alien space ship, come to us wake us up and tell us. So we closed the office door. Now he thinks he sees the office door opening. The other night it was so bad he was shaking all over terrified. So due to being so tired he sleep with us briefly until I sent him back. We encourage him to pray to trust that God is in control and that the house is safe but if something were to happen it would happen and God has a greater plan than we can understand. Last night 3 times he came in and woke us up it is getting worst not better. He feels we are mad at him and we let him know that we are not mad just frustrated with the situation. We told him not to get up to go back to sleep that is not working. I know he is truly scared and not trying to just sleep with us we never let him, but I feel punishing him is not quite the right avenue yet . What should I do. Any suggestions would be much appreciated.

Life is tremendous.

So I am going to apply for a job at Moody High school in the office. Crazy I know but I keep an eye on there web site because I think it would be fabulous to be off work when the kids are out and I am very excited. Thanks to all the ladies that came over today and listening to my excitement. I can get a little excited. But I have decided that having something while the kids are in school would be good for me I tend to get a little crazy when I am not busy. So we will see what happens. I am leaving it up to God and if it is not this particular job He will have the right one lined up for me. Will I keep going to school? Probably but I am not sure if I would stick with nursing. Maybe something in office admin. or something. Because I think a job where I am off when the kids are would be super fabulous. And to be honest I love school but it can get a little tedious and I would be just as happy doing office work and working for the county. I am way to obsessed about retirement. but I really want to retire and travel and I need to have a good retirement lined up. And it would be a good fit for me I think. Who knows we will see. Anyway I had a really great day. I love having people over. I will have to do it again soon.

Chocolate Cake anyone?

I would like to invited everyone over for chocolate cake Tuesday around 2:00p.m. If you can make it I would love to have you. Let me know if you can or just come on over.

Lately

So life has been busy lately. And to quote Paige I haven't felt obligated to blog much lately. School is good and I have an A in math right now. I have never been able to say that in my entire life. Usually I was happy about a C. Wisdom and old age and actually studying has its advantages. I have observed that I really don't remember much of what I learned in high school, not because I had a drinking or drug problem just because I was a teenager and didn't really care. I hope I can instill in my kids the ability to care or a least that school matters. We'll see.

Speaking of school the boys start in less the three weeks. I am a little nervous about it but mainly nervous about being all by myself all day. What will I do? I meant I haven't been without one or both of them in almost 10 years! I am happy for them they are both very excited and looking forward to it. We will just have to wait and see what happens. I hope it all goes well and that I don't worry to much about weather it is the right thing or not.

Life feels good right now I mean really good. The hubby is wonderful the kids are good, summer has been so much fun. I am looking forward to tomorrow. Can't wait to see what life has around the corner.

Chillin.

So summer is so good. We went to the water park Alabama Adv. my cousin Lindy and her son Jonathan came up and we had a great time. We got to talk a lot and I got to share with her the love I have for my church family and that finding a good church home is so encouraging and wonderful for your life and living the gospel and grace is wonderful. I am sure I did not convey it that eloquently but I hope I did okay. I love her so much and want great things for her. I had to call her at work to set up our plans. I still think it is so cute she has a job. I know she is grown up but in my mind we are still kids when we talk to each other.

Anyway the water park was great the kids had a great time. I am way to old to ride spinning stuff in fact I never really liked it so I got a little motion sick. The water rides were great except the one that is shaped like a bowl I banged my head and feel through the hole in a most unlady like fashion. But the boys thought I was way cool for doing it. And I have to get in my way cool quota before I get to old.

Can not wait till the 4th we are going down to see family and it will be a blast as always.

Happy 4th!!!

Things I need to do.

I need to study. I can't seem to motivate myself to do Math it is so uninspiring.

I need to register the kids for school. I thought you had to do it by June now I know you have till July. Next week for sure.

Go to the grocery store. I need milk and Aldi is to far just for milk, but I don't want to go to Walmart just for milk. Can I survive without milk?

I need to stop and enjoy life more. I always feel better when I am so busy, but learning to be in the moment is hard. So I need to be in the moment and enjoy the kids and summertime more.

I need to be more patience. I have so little.

I need to turn off the cable. I don't need to watch so much TV.

I need to focus less on what I eat but why I eat. I want to not care one way or the other but I am a little obsessed with it. I need to give it to God and to not try and strategies it.

I need to exercise more. I used to exercise a least 5 days a week sometimes 6. Now I am at about 3 or 4.

I need to not worry and trust God. This is the biggest need. Why do I always feel like He needs my help to make decisions I mean surly He wants to know what I want Him to do.

So maybe I can give all my needs to God and not try and fix everything myself. Is that just one more thing I need to do? Oh well I am trying a little I guess.

Summer an stuff.

We have been pretty busy with summer lately. If you haven't been the Moody library has been having different shows and door prizes every Friday. They have one more left a magician. It really has been fun. Eric won a door prize today so he was so excited. Also we have been having a great time at the Clayton's pool. I love having a place to take them to swim.

Last night Paige and I took Rebbecca dinner and got to meet and hold baby Jonathan. He is so sweet and it was fun to get to visit.

I really can't believe June is half way over. I forgot to wish Darrin a happy birthday on the blog Wednesday. So happy birthday Darrin. I love you even though you are on the down side of the hill. Growing old with you makes me very happy. Happy 42!!

The boys are really enjoying their guitar lesson. They think Adam is the coolest guy on the face of the Earth. And amazingly enough they are actually learning how to play. Not that I doubted Adam's ability just the ability of an 9 and 5 year old to focus and practice. But they do and enjoy it a lot.

My Math class is going well. I got an 95/A on my first test. It was easier than I though t it would be. Fractions are next. I remember why I don't like fractions because they are fractions.

Anyhoo can't wait until the 4th we are going to go visit the family in Wetumpka. I haven't seen some of my aunt's and uncles and cousins since Thanksgiving. So that should be fun. Later.

The boys are back.

The boys are back. Yeah I really missed them 4 days is a long time. They had a great time with Grandma. They took them on their boat and went to Lake Jordon and Lake Martin. They got to drive the boat and had a great time. My family had a cabin on Lake Martin growing up and I have many wonderful memories of the lake. So I was very excited they got to ride on boat. They have never done that before. So now back to full time motherhood. I really did enjoy the quite but now that they are older they really are not as much work as when they were little. So things I discovered about myself while all alone for 4 days. (Darrin was home in the evenings but I was by myself all day).

1. I watch way to much TV. And trash TV.

2. I find my self thinking and my lips moving. I was truly one day away from talking to my self.

3. The baby dog would be so spoiled if I was alone with him on a continuous bases.

4. I email a lot because I was a wee bit lonely.

5. I would probably never cook.

6. I would shop a lot.

7. I do not like to be alone. (I see a pattern).

8. I don't eat as much because I forget to.

9. I had to get my own drink a lot.

10. I am way spoiled.

So next time they leave me I need to arrange play dates for my self so I don't turn in to the crazy lady with a little dog all dressed up in cute outfits.

Alabaster city feast.

City feast and more.

We went to city feast in Alabaster Sat. It was fun whee bit hot but fun was had by all. It was free to get in they had a bounce moonwalk area that was free. Also a rock wall that was free to climb. Zachary had fun and tried 3 or 4 times and finally got to the top. I told him to have that much focus and drive when it came to school work. He did not find that funny. Act of Congress played they were awesome as always.

Sunday the mother-in-law meet us for lunch and offered to take the kids with her for a few days. We say of course but they have no extra clothes. She says no problem I will buy them some. I secretly think she thinks I over pack when they normally go. Just in defense of myself Zach one time wore his Elmo pajama shirt to church with her. So I tend to send a lot of choices. Of course she back packed through Europe with just a back pack for 3 weeks. I could never do that. I try to pack lighter. When we meet her and Darrin's brother in Calloway last year for Thanksgiving I was so glad we got there first so she could not see all my luggage.

Anyhoo just imagine our excitement at the unexpected thrill of no kids. We went and rented 2 movies and watched both. I had not been feeling good all day thought maybe just tired. No I had fever and a little stuffy. Spent all day yesterday laying and feeling horrible. I could have gone anywhere but no I could not lift my head without feeling dizzy. So anyway I feel better today and hope to leave the house. I have not showered in awhile so I know I will at least do that today. Oh did I mention I can't stand my Math class it is way not fun. It is all about Math, Math,Math, Math that is all the teacher talks about. Boring!!! So later all.

Crazy!!!

Okay so I saw on the news the new Top Model is a plus size. SHE IS A SIZE 10!!! When did size 10 become plus size. I mean I really don't care but the struggle is hard enough without having crazy people decide size 10 is plus size. Why does it matter I honestly want to scream. Who is in charge of this decisions and when did it matter so much what size we are. I want to be happy and healthy. I want to not look at myself and not judge myself. Happiness is not suppose to be tied up in what size jeans we ware. I want to eat a cookie or two and not feel guilty. I want my happiness to be in my family and God not in my size. I guess it has always been this way think of the crossest and be glad those days are gone. Maybe one day this crazy world will look at everyone for who they are and not what their weight is. Maybe not. I want to bring chubby back and that to bring sexy back. I mean chubby is sexy right? Here's to the pursuit of happiness. I am going to go eat a cookie.

Summer.

It's hot. When did it happen and why is it always such a shock to the system? Anyway I am currently trying to keep 3 different plants alive. I have a black thumb what am I thinking! Also 2 pots have a variety of plats, 1 has peppers the other has basil, parsley and oregano. The other is a white ivy that I got on my birthday. I always want to grow things and they always die I figured out that I mainly water to much so I am trying to remember to test the soil. Will see.

How you know you are back from your all girl beach trip:

1.The boys are playing football on the square video game thing. I think that is so pointless. I do not like video games. They actually think they are playing. Ugh. They yell at it and take it personally. Men.

2. I am going to eat something cooked on the grill tonight.

3. The Belmont horse race comes on today. We watch the derby and the other one every year. Not so into it.

4. When I got back the boys had been camping. They had ticks. Why I don't go camping.

5. I have cooked every night this week. I don't mind cooking just lets me know I am back.

Well I guess I am back to earth and school has started back for me. The teacher is a teacher at Moody Elementary (I had to spell check to spell elementary good thing English is over)Anyway he seems to grade really nicely. You get 5 test you can throw out the lowest and if you do really good on the finally you can throw out your other lowest and use your finally grade twice. So unless I take up crack or crystal meth I think I will pass. (I know I shared that with some of you but I thought it was a great line if I do say so myself). So I have not even opened the book yet maybe tomorrow.

Glad to be home and back among friends. We had a great time at Crissy last night. Always great food and fun with the ladies. Toddles for now.

Beach trip 2008!!

We had a great time at the beach. It was really great seeing my friends from P'ville. Keeping in touch is hard when your so far away. It was wonderful hanging out by the pool and relaxing. The hardest part was eating late I am not use to that. But waiting for a table takes a while. You may wander where the pictures of the actually beach are. I forgot to take them But me in a swim suit for all the blog world to see I am okay with. Missed everybody. Hope to see my fellow work out friends tomorrow I need to run. A lot.

Check out my Slide Show!

River Life

Well we have been Mom's since yesterday. The boys and I have been treated like royalty. Mom has cooked and watched the boys the whole time. I just woke up from a 2 hour nap and I wasn't awaken by the kids I woke up naturally. How awesome !!!! I also got a new book that I have been reading and it is very good. Riley, my step-dad, took the boys hiking/walking and I read it for about 2 hours. Hey I see a pattern, and I like the pattern. So I feel like I need to do something I have been so busy with life lately that I think I need to do something. But I think I am going to try to keep relaxing and enjoy this break.

Oh by the way I still go to the beach Friday without the kids or Darrin for three whole days with one of my best girlfriends. Try not to hate me to much. Just kidding if I could I would take everybody with me. Well maybe not everybody.

36

I am adjusting to the fact that I turned 36 yesterday. Really that is getting scary close to the big 40. I never thought about getting older until I started getting older. But I had a great day the kids made me cards and the hubby bought me a card with some money for my trip to the beach with some friends from Prattville next week. Kim made me a wonderful chocolate cake gooey thing that was wonderful, thank you. At the gym after running I mention that it was my birthday I don't like to say it out loud like please don't look at me. So everyone started singing "Happy Birthday" and so I blushed really bad and was so embarrassed. But it does always make you feel special when people sign "Happy Birthday" so thanks ladies. My Mom sent me a beautiful email telling me things about my babyhood and my delivery. Thanks Mom.

Onto, will soccer ever end? We are now making up games that we missed from bad weather. And a tournament on Friday and Saturday with a total of 5 games. I am really ready for it to be over. I really enjoy soccer and the boys love it for the most part but near the end I can't wait for it to be over. So one more week.

Next week we are going down to visit my Mom and the I am going to the beach with just girls cannot wait. 3 whole days on the beach with one of my bestest friends Angie. So that should be really funny. Another friend Bridget is letting us go down with her for the weekend then her family is coming after we leave. I miss my friends form P'ville it has been an adjustment so getting to see them will be great.

So I guess I will now come to terms with my age the alternate to not getting older is even less appealing.

I Got A "B".

I can not believe it I got a B in English. I was very worried about it because it was harder than I thought. I also never knew how my research paper turned out. Maybe I get something in the mail about it who knows I don't care I passed. So on to Math for simpletons.

On to Mother's Day I am very thankful for my mother. She has always been there for me and though we have not always gotten along perfectly she has always supported me and loved me unconditionally all my life. So thank you my sweet Mommy for all that you do and all that you are.I would wanted no other mother but you. All my love your Happy Heart. (See pic above I think she will be okay with this pic since you can't see her really well. She does not like pic's of herself)

Also to all the mother's out there and you know who you are you have the stretch marks to always remind you of your bundles of joy. I wish all of you the happiest Mother's Day ever.

Leaving?

Is Kim really leaving? Is she really? Who will take me to the thrift store and find me fabulous stuff? I mean I am such a newbie at thrifting and I still need lots of help. So I really will miss that part a lot but I will really miss her smiling face the way she always makes everyone feel so welcome. I remember the first time I went to her house for small groups and I sat at the bar in the pool house and I knew after about ten minutes that we would be friends really good friends. She has shown me the gospel so much and always weaves it into her life so beautifully. Always answering my questions but never pushy. She has made me a runner I know she would say I did it but she is a great motivator. She has taught me to be more open and the ability to be more hospitable. Even when you have to watch Phantom of the Opera 3 times in one week still you get cheese cake and you are always welcome. My boys will miss her boys greatly. So I know you are scared about leaving and I know that you will make new friends but I am glad that I get to say that I am your friend. You made my move and adjustment to Moody so wonderful and I will always be grateful to you for that. So as hard as it is for you to leave I pray for you and that in Clinton MS that there are lots of friends waiting to be blessed with you as their friend. As long as you know that I expect you back here in three years to the day. And whenever you want to come visit that the Nold's welcome you and I can't wait to come stay with you and see the fabulous Mississippi. I love you and I am proud of you. Missing you already.

My top ten favorite things about Kim Hill.

1. Cheese cake and her love of it.

2. Hangin and just talking endless about everything.

3. That she can't understand how I just don't like coffee. Even with liquor in it.

4. Shopping. (need I say more)

5. Beex and his love of Mrs. Header's bubble gum.

6. Si guys sweet face.

7. Corin and his funny, funny sense of humor.

8. Her great passion for something if she loves it (Phantom anyone).

9. Her open and wonderful happy self.

10. That I am her friend. :)

Conflicted?????????????????????

I have finished writing my paper. I can't believe it it seems like I have been working on it forever. I have been thinking lately that I don't know if I want to keep going with school. Do I have the patience? Do I really want to? Am I wishy washy? I really want to keep going but it has been a strain on my time and the time with the family. The boys have been great at helping and not having there dinner cooked every night. And I am happy having my own little slice of life. But the boys are going back to school next year and I think why not just get a job and not wait 3 to 4 years to finish school. Or work and go to school. I have a difficult time making decisions and I don't like to stop something once I have started. But I know that it would be okay either way. I just wonder if am able to keep up with it all. I still have to type my paper and edit it so the work goes on. I have learned a lot and have decided to take a math class during the summer. Which I actually see as growth for me. I am usually an all or nothing person so doing something I am not 100% sure about is good for me. So maybe it is about growing and not just about finishing. Guess I need to type my paper. Peace out.

I think I am turing into a morning person!!!

Help me I think I am turning into a morning person. I don't understand it I am official unable to go back to sleep if I wake up around 6:00a.m. This is not like me at all,it started about 2 years ago and it has only gotten worse. I miss sleeping in till 9:00 or 10:00 but alas even when on vacation I can't. Sad :( But it has made me more productive in the morning I even fixed breakfast for my husband this morning before he left. This almost never happens and it was only cinnamon rolls but hey I opened the can and put then in the oven and he loves cinnamon rolls. But I used to wish I would be a morning person because I am married the morningest morning person ever. He does more before 8:00a.m. then I do all day. But he has always been sympathetic to my affliction of sleeping in past 7:00a.m. He even wishes he could sleep in sometimes but that is a rare occurrence. So I guess I will be getting all the early bird specials and be asleep by 8:30 okay I am also official old.

In a Good Mood.

I am in a good mood. Did a lot of work on my paper last night at the library. I meet with my teacher tonight and should probably be working on it now but I don't want too. So had a great time at Kim's yesterday thank you for the wonderful pictures and I am glad I could unburden you of some of your cheese cakes. I will miss you greatly when you go but I am happy for you on your new adventure (I said that because it is the right thing to do but really not happy about it at all) good luck. Any who me and the boys just baked banana nut bread, oatmeal cookies, and bran muffins, I have been in the mood to bake for a couple of weeks but have not had the time. We had great fun and they are actually helpful at fetching and measuring things now so it is fun. I need to clean the house but baking was so much more fun then cleaning so maybe tomorrow. I have truly learned to be more patient since starting school, learning that my-self worth is not connected to how clean my house is or how perfect I keep everything. Also not fussing at everybody for not doing it and just letting go. If only I could put off laundry but people are running out of under ware and socks so that I have to kind of pay attention to. So here's to a great day loving ever minute of my crazy busy life. Later.

5 K We did it!!!

How long?

I am a horrible procrastinator, I need to be working on my final research paper but I don't want to.(imagine me whining and pulling my hair, while laying in the floor kicking my feet) That is how I feel.I don't understand why we have to do something totally different from what we have be doing. Very frustrating, I know I must learn and get through this and I am trying to remember why I want to do this. Why? I have lost a little focus and Darrin has been giving me pep talks,thanks honey. But I guess the biggest thing I am learning is to stick with it. I didn't know I would have to have quiet so many pep talks with myself but a least I have not quit. I will not DOR "I got no where else to go". Love that movie. So I will keep on keeping on. And try not to be so whiny.

Also, the 5K is Saturday wish us luck and no rain. I am still enjoying running I can sometimes run and talk at the same time now. Learning new things at my age is really cool. I mean I always thought of over 30 as near the end thank goodness that is not so. I am happier than I have ever been and glad to be learning new things. So I guess I better go work on my paper or maybe put it off until later.

Belk's has a sell.

Well Friday morning after running Kim mention Belk's is having a $1.98 to $4.98 sell I say I'm in. So I go home then head over to Kim's. Within 10 minutes maybe not even that long Zach's saying Mom from out side very urgently. I walk out and Eric is bleeding from his chin and knee, Zach explains that he lost control of the bike he was on and ran over Eric. "What you ran over him" I ask? Yes he ran over him. Okay I am thinking a few band-aide's and we will be on or way to the big sell at Belk's. But then every time Eric moves he screams his belly hurts. So I lift up his shirt and guess what a tire mark going right across his upper belly. Now I get a little scared because he is making this moan like wail that is not like him. So Kim comes and looks and we call Anita, she is at work, so we call Myja and she looks and says probably need to get him checked out. So I call Darrin because I don't like to drive in a panic, so he meets me at Raceway and we go to St.Vincent's East. They check him out and say he is a little tender on his side he needs a CT. Okay so we are there about 4 hours they got us back quick and did a great job. But the whole time Eric is fine joking playing Eye Spy. So they do the CT and say he may have a lesion on his spleen. I'm sorry say again? My brain is not computing. Then we are told we will be there or transferred to Children's. So now I have that scary felling inside because living in Montgomery Children's is were you were flown to if it was really bad. So they did transfer us in an ambulance (because they wanted him under the care of surgeons that specials in children in case he needed surgery) Eric did like the ambulance ride they rode lights and siren go down 20/59 at 5:00 p.m. very wild. So we get there they put me in a little room all be myself. Didn't like this I needed to talk nervously to make me feel better but no one was there. Darrin had run home to get me some clothes to sleep in at the hospital. Then they move him to the PICU,again scared feeling inside. But they soon reviewed his CT and said that it maybe a lesion but it maybe just a bruise. We would be moving to a private room. So by now they have put an IV in both the babies arms and start drawing blood every 4 hours. He could not get up, he was on bed rest, no food, Eric was not happy. They were all really great and kind they took care of Darrin and me to, getting us water and whatever we needed, Children's was great. So they let us go the next day and it was a bruise on his spleen so no soccer or wrestling or to much running around for 2 weeks. During all of this,for the first time in my life, I didn't think God what did I do wrong and now what can I do right to make this all okay and make you happy with me again. I just keep being thankful for his grace and knowing that I was on the path He had chosen for me and to just be with me in my time of need. And he was there the whole time and He loved me and delighted in me and that was my comfort to know that things happen and that no matter what God would be there for me and my family.

So you ask what about the sell I made it yesterday and got some really great stuff. But most of all I am glad my baby is okay.

Day Three,Four and Five.

Okay so we did leave really early. Got to Destin at about 9:30 can you say early check-in I love this try it sometimes check-in is normally at 4:00 p.m. but if your room is ready they let you check-in. If it is not ready just go have lunch or shop. It is like getting an extra day. So anyway we got there changed and went for a run so humid and fast man is to fast for me. I mean Darrin says he is slow but I am about to die and he is doing ballet moves to be funny and it just makes me crazy because I can't even breathe. I missed my running friends this week they run like normal semi-fast people not crazy legs Darrin. So after the run we changed and went and had lunch. First let me describe were we stayed. Sand Destin is a resort with hotels and golf and stores and so much stuff our hotel is attached to The Village which is a New Orleans style area with shops and restaurants/bars. So we can walk about a block and be right in the middle of it. So we had lunch started to rain (we were on a covered dock that was lover the little pond area) and had great fun. I ordered a Pina Coldia (spelling is way off spell check did not help) so it had way to much rum in it and I like to taste coconut not rum so Darrin helped me drink it because it cost allot. They have a 2% resort fee on most dining out things what is that? I mean duh I have to pay 2 % that is insane. But resort life is very nice so I guess that is to be expected. So anyway took a nap and then went to dinner and then my favorite place was The Funky Blues Shack they had live music and both night the bands were really good. So this is my observation on bar people. I know I was also in a bar but we really were there for the music. There is always and older woman dancing all alone to some pretty undancable music. Both night's this was true, how bizarre. Always college girls in way to short a skirt and way to much make-up, and older guys ready to buy them drinks. Really the people watching was just as fun as the music. So the next day took the Tram down to the beach love the Tram, you call and they pick you up and take you anywhere on the resort love me some Tram. I loathe having to drive everywhere and you can have a few drinks and not worry about driving. Oh also did a little shopping at the factory outlets good prices but they were no Big Saver let me tell you. So went to the pool, no swimming a little to cool but my fake tan got some pool side time. Took a nap and then went over the Towne Center and ate at his great Mexican place. Walked out on the pier and then back to the Shack. Love me some Funky Blues. So any who got back this afternoon and crashed for about 2 hours and enjoyed seeing my boys and hearing all about there fun times at Grandma's and Gingey's. I must now come back down to earth. I must say that this had to be my favorite trip with just me and Darrin ever. Hope to see everyone at the Easter egg hunt tomorrow.

Day one and day two.

So day one of vacation was fun picked up the kids then meet my sister-in-law and got my niece and nephew in Prattville. Stopped by to see my goodest friend Angie and hung out with her for a little while. Then came down to Mom's Darrin got here about 6:30 and we all watched the Bee-Movie very funny.

Day two woke up way early my Mom does not like curtains it blocks the view and the sun is so bright in the morning. So then Darrin and I rode into P'ville, we went to the Bass Pro shop, he does not hunt or fish but it is a man store. Saw an old friend that we both used to work with (she was the cashier at the Bass Pro place) she didn't recognize me I sometimes forget I used to way a good bit more, anyway good to see here we used to go to lunch every day and went through a pregnancy with her. Then the sun came out really good so we put the top down on the Jeep and rode with AC/DC blasting on the radio and cruised on back. The kids have already gotten muddy from head to toe twice they are all fixing to shower and settle in with the Game cube. Oh forgot I brought chili fixins and made a big old pot this morning.

So day three I think since we wake up around 5:30, remember no curtains, probably be at the beach around 8:00 tomorrow. Sand Destin here we come.

Movie reviews.

This weekend the kids went to their Grandma's Saturday. Darrin and I had such a great time. We rented movies Saturday (Gone Baby Gone and The Simpson's')We watched Gone Baby Gone because we had both read the book. It drives me crazy when they change the movie I mean I know you can't keep everything in but they changed some very relevant stuff. And the Boston accents it was like watching Pride and Prejudice I obviously have a fair amount of difficulty with accents. The Simpson's' vulgar not very funny so completely rude and irreverent. No surprise there. Then Sunday got up tried to go running together, I didn't eat breakfast made it one lap and almost through-up. Oh did I mention I had a little wine the night before, I can not drink then run the next morning. I felt so bad I apologized a least 20 times to my husband who was so nice and didn't make me feel bad. We then went to Waffle House can you say "PECAN waffle" I have not had one in a very long time so good. Then we went to church, then went to lunch, then went to see Semi-Pro with Will Ferrel. He is so funny I mean he just makes me laugh so hard it had way to many F$#@ in it but it so so funny. Then we came home packed a little went to eat at Santa Fe (Darrin did not want to cook so we did not have to clean up) so three meals out yesterday yeah crazy I know but we are in vacation mode, and when you eat out without the kids and drink water it is really not to pricey. So this morning Darrin went to work and Grandma called last night and wanted to take the boys fishing this morning so I don't have to get them until about 1:00 or so. So I may blog while at Mom's I don't know. Oh did I mention I have a paper due the Tuesday after we get back. I really don't want to write a paper, I want to be on vacation fully now I have this paper looming over me like a black cloud. I will write a Mom's and hopefully get done. I will not write while at the beach that would just be wrong. Love me some vacation, and I feel completely caught up on my movie watching.

Time away!!

Can't wait for Spring Break. Me and the kids are going to Mom's and then Darrin is going to meet me there and then we are going to Sand Destin for 2 1/2 days. It is our 12 year anniversary!! I can't believe it has been 12 years, life just flies by at mach speed. So since I have a paper due this week two dentist appointments and I need to pack. I am going to sing his praises now because I may not get to later.(and I know Darrin would be upset if I didn't blog about him)

So I have know Darrin since I was 19 and we worked together, I went away to school then came back and we went out. I knew after about 2 weeks he was the one. What the deciding factor was when we went to the store at 10:30 and bought me a Coke and a Snickers. I thought this guy will take care of me forever, and he has. He spoils me rotten and I hope I do the same for him. Life is good and I hope to grow really old with my sweetie. He makes me laugh and has always been there for me throughout our lives together. So thank you honey for our 2 wonderful sons and for 12 years of wonderful times. I love you.

Soccer 2008

Fun at the park with friends.

Spring please!!

Woke up this morning again with a sore throat. Way tired of the sickies. But I will survive Hey Hey! (I always have to sing that when I say survive Hey Hey!) So other then that I fell pretty good. So tired of school I am ready for Spring Break we hadn't planned on taking it off but I think we need a break. My school is going pretty well but it is harder then I had thought it would be, my teacher is very nice and let me and others rewrite our papers if we needed to. I needed too. So the only thing getting me through is that I am half way done and I show up to class and participate so I hope that is worth some extra points. I need a C so I hope that I do get it. I am learning but,college is very different and I hope the difficulty of this class will prepare me for my other classes.

So 10 things I like about Spring!

1.Flowers blooming. I do not have a green thumb so I must admire others flowers but I do love them. Oohh a field trip to the Botanical Gardens!!!

2. Flip Flops. I love that they are back in style.

3. Sunshine.

4. Fresh air, cool breezes.

5. Trips to the beach before it gets to hot.

6. It's not a 114 degrees yet.

7. Swimming or watching the kids swim when it is really to cold but they don't care.

8. Easter and Easter dresses, Easter egg hunts. We always had a big hunt at my PawPaw's I'll miss that.

9. Sitting in the backyard music on,BBQing, drinking a cool beverage. With my sweetie or course.

10. Everything becoming new again. The grass, the trees, the flowers everything.

So eagerly awaiting Spring, and eagerly awaiting May 2 (that would be the end of English 101) and on to new Summer classes.

I had great fun helping at Kim's yesterday I was so motivated and enjoyed scrubbing the floors with a rag(I have never done that before) I came home and did it to my floors. Loved it they are so pretty. The house is clean which always makes me happy. I used to wonder why things in life happen. Why God? It is hard to look at it from why not; I have been through things that made me question God and His love for me. I have learned so much this past year about God's devine providence and seen such strength in our church that I hope I am better at not questioning God and to accepted what He has planned for me whatever it may be. To have heart ache and know that from that God is working. To suffer and to know that how I suffer may help someone else. To be helpful and always thinking of other does not come naturally to me, I am trying and hope that I can get better at it. I think that I want to know why but truly that would be to much for me and to give all things to God is forever the challenge. Yesterday was a sad and happy day to be able to pray with each other and to feel the depth of our love through the love of God was so moving and so powerful. I think that that is what the meaning of church is and why God's wants us to be part of the body so we can grow and love each other through everything.

FLURRY!!!

Zachary does not feel well he is worse than a 2 year old with the whining. He thinks sick means laying on the couch or playing his game cube. It means you need a nap. So he is crying and won't just rest in his bed. Maybe I am horrible and should just let him watch TV but he tends to be like me and has lazy down real good. So maybe he will rest maybe not I am ready for SPRING!!!! I mean it is snow flurrying today yesterday it was 70 degrees. CRAZY!!!!

I ran 8 whole minutes today twice. YEAH!!! That is the most I have ran since Jr.High when they made you. I really like it it feels good do to something I never thought I could do. I also need to get over that I should lose a least 5 to 10 pounds a week now that I am a "runner". I feel like a new mom who's baby is the greatest baby ever like I have done something so unique. So I will not try to talk about it to much but am really great at it now that I have been doing it for 8 whole weeks so I must share my vast knowledge of running with everyone. Just kidding.

So maybe it will get warmer and I will shrink a little or not. I wish that I could have a week on the beach. With the kids and a nanny for the kids so I can see them some but not a lot. I know,never going to happen but a girl has to have her dreams.

Sick

We are sick I felt like yuck yesterday head cold, laid on the couch and slept off and on all day. Zachary then started trowing up right after lunch luckily only two or three times. I know I should probably know how many times but remember I was asleep and he is 9 and can run fast a make it to a toilet. So if there is anything good about trowing up is when your kid can make it to the toilet. My baby is growing up:( As you know I have been mourning the loss of my 150 channels since we down graded. I am so spoiled and am realizing this. I have made it and got the first much, much lower bill so it is not quiet as painful anymore. When is game cube to much? 3 hours 7 hours? Is it wrong for them to watch TV right after I say turn that off and do something productive like watch TV!!! I think they are about ready for a pop quiz on Logo Star Wars. So hope everyone gets better and spring will get here soon. Can you say hay fever?

Trying to do nothing.

The kids are at my Mom's. I woke up all on my own this morning. Nobody had to be feed but me. I am trying to do nothing. It is not as easy as it sounds. I have watched a lot of TV and lounged a good bit but now its 2ish and I just changed out the laundry. Took a shower. Cleaned the kitchen. I can't stop. Why is it so hard to do nothing? I mean I dream of doing nothing but never seem to get to. So I promised myself that today I would do nothing. But alas I can't seem to stop myself. Maybe I need an intervention. Someone to stand over me and make me relax, but if someone was coming over I would really have to get the house in order. So I guess I have enjoyed doing things on my schedule today so that is sort of like doing nothing isn't it?

Also it is to quiet I have the TV and radio on, the dry and wash are making noise. But no one is running around being crazy. Max did bark this morning at something but that only lasted a few minutes he is very quite. So I guess I will try and enjoy the quiet while it last. I promise tho veggie out a little more but now I have to finish my rough draft for class tonight. Nathaniel Hawthorne so interesting. Sort of.

100 Day party!!

We had a great time at our 100 day of school party.

Check out my Slide Show!

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Just cleaned the house it is so lovely. I absolutely hate my vacuum I really want a Dyson. I am almost caught up on laundry and I feel very in control. I know this feeling is fleeting so I am trying to enjoy it while I can. I made a 76/C on my first essay. I am so glad I did pretty good for my first time, at least that is what the teacher wrote on my paper. So on to the next one.

So I was the "friend" who went to Moody Elementary yesterday. We are considering the boys going next year. I love homeschooling and really enjoy it. But I feel overwhelmed and ill equipped which I know is a pretty common feeling. So as a family we when decided to homeschool we said that we would not close any doors. I always thought that they would eventually go back and I guess knowing when is the big question. So we are thinking and I am just so glad that we live in a time and place where we have the choices we do. I think sometimes having the choices are hard. I am just really glad the kids are open with us and let us know what they want and respect that Darrin and I will make the best decision for the family.

I am running. I think this is so unbelievable. I have a husband who runs and have always secretly wanted to run, but never thought I could. I can run 5 whole minutes without stopping. Thanks ladies I really am enjoying it.

The COWS meeting was good. I think that Crissy did a great job, because you really have to trust God with everything and know that He can do whatever you need Him to do in any area of your life.

So today is a good day and I got things done. I wish I felt good even when I am not doing all the things on my mental check list. I guess I just need to add that to my list.

OCD!!

Kim Hill tagged me to do my top 10 obsessions which came from her happy list. Go figure.

So here goes.

1. I re-wash clothes if they don't smell perfect. I hate when they smell even a little musty.

2. Fingernails. I used to always keep mine long and polished. Lately they won't grow they peel down to the quick. I am so vain that it is driving me crazy.

3. Cleaning my house. I am compulsive about it. I could clean 2 or 3 hours a day, happily. I have let it go a little but it drives me crazy. I adore vacuum lines in the carpet they are soooo pretty.

4. I won't wear red. Why can't redheads wear red? The thing is I bought a red swing velvet coat. Now I am scared to wear it. I mean blonde's wear yellow, brunettes wear brown. So why not.

5. Clean feet. I hate dirty feet.I make my kids bath way to much. When Zach was a baby the doctor told me to stop washing him so much I was drying him out. Sorry Zach.

6. I love my yorkie Max way more then is normal. I am not a huge pet person but he is truly the greatest dog in the whole world. I love him like a crazy old cat lady except he is a dog, and I don't want 10 dogs just the one.

7. I plan everything. When we go on trips I would have a schedule of every minute of everyday. I actually did the last time and it was way fun for me. I don't like open endedness I need a schedule. The family on the other hand, not so into it.


8. I could watch TV for days on end I hate that I could watch it so much. We recently downgraded the Dish to 100 channels. I miss the other 150 allot. Even though there are only about 10 I really miss but you can't just order what you want. Very annoying.

9. Lent. I de-lent everybody. I had a Bounce scented lent brush it ran out and now I am worried I want be able to find a new one. I can not de-lent before I leave and it is driving me crazy.

10. I drink Diet Coke we are out now and it is in the back of my brain that I am out and I need it. I need it bad really bad. I mean I don't think I could live with out it. I horde it and will not share. When we go out to my Mom's I have 3 or 4 20oz even if we are only there over night.( She lives way far out and it is to far to go to a store so I must have it with me at all time.

Isn't it fun that what makes us happy also makes us crazy. Who knew.