School and a girl trip.

I am wondering if anyone will read this but I guess I feel at little like blogging. School is good. It is a lot and I think I am way ready for Spring Break. And really ready for this quarter to be over. Which it will be soon enough and the one more class this summer and I will be ready to apply to start nursing school. And then who knows. Time is always moving forward and no matter what happens I have learned to be happy with were I am at instead of always think I will only be happy when I get there.

Girl trip this past weekend. To much fun. The movie was good and even if I had not been lured with time away and hangin with two of my bestest friends. I would have watched the whole movie. It was funny and sad and different. Rob can act and I enjoyed it. It was a little sad though. I hugged both my boys when I got home and let them know how much I loved them. The mom in the movie was very cold. I don't ever want to be like that. In fact I don't think that I could.

So off to study and try to figure out my math. It is so so so hard right now. I really don't care how much liquid will fit in a box. I just think things like, what kind of box is it? Is it a cardboard box because that would just make a mess. Is it a pretty box? Can I decorate it if it is not pretty. These thought do not help me to actually learn how to convert the numbers and greatly interferes with my ability to pass the test I have next week. Math is yucky.

Oscar night

Darrin does not like the Oscar's. He thinks it is just a lot of egomaniacs stroking their ego's. And he is basically right. But I really like the pretty dresses and the pretty people. But the last few years I have not seen any of the movies some I would want to some not so much. It is about having time to and I usually don't.

So let me say that watching it with a bunch of girlfriends was to much fun. We laughed we cried (Val Kilmer is real heavy and I did tear up a little at a picture of him) But mostly we laughed it was super fun. I ate way to much and found out that Ginger and Whitney are very prissy and don't think a girl should burp. Sorry ladies for offending you so greatly. But really it was just plain old fun. I am a little bit sleepy today since I didn't get home until 12 ish, but it was well worth it.

Other than that school is good a little harder this time having two classes and Quizzes in Bio every week. I have been challenged and I am having to learn to not be a perfectionist and do the best I can. The balance of life and school is getting easier and I hope preparing me for the day I actually work outside the home. Will see. So ta ta for now.

Progress

I have decided I am a big whiny baby sometimes, okay most of the time. I have decided that I am going to enjoy school and not freaky out about the whole need an A thing to get into nursing. I mean I have been losing sleep over it. It will be what it will be. And in doing so it freed me up to just enjoy the process a little more and stop trying to make it happen.

I miss hang out at the park with friends. Cold weather go away. Please. I need sunny and warmth. Need shorts, okay capris I am getting a little to old for shorts. Unless they are of course travel shorts. (thanks Kim Hill for that piece of fashion advice.)

Looking forward to the 25th b-day party. Yeah talent show. Last year was out first show and it was way fun.

Off to church. Yeah.

Later.

My Kingdom

Kingdom building was the topic of Wednesday night class. I really like building my own kingdom. But I am really not good at it. I mean I think I am for a little while then it all comes crashing down around my ears, and I realize I need Jesus so much. Then it all starts over again. The I realize that the crashing is okay because I need it to point me back to the cross. So that helps me not get as frustrated with myself. I am glad I find comfort in that and it makes me so grateful for grace.

School is a frustrating thing right now I love going and I am so grateful I am going, but it is a lot a effort and I am trying to not let it dictated my moods. Whether I am happy or sad and sometimes I am able to not let it sometimes it gets away from me. I really want to glorify God through it and learn so I am trying. Staying or quiting is a constant battle right now staying is wining but quiting is always there. Maybe by the time I apply to the nursing program and actually get in will help.

So we are going out of town this weekend so have a good weekend.

Life is good lately and busy of course. School is good and after my initial panic that I always get in the being that I can't do this it is just to hard, I am getting my groove and getting a feel for my teachers.

Went with Crissy today do a women's conference in Jasper. So I really went to hang out with Crissy but God had other plan's. I mean I did get to hang out but it was a really good seminar about mercy ministry's. I learned a lot and I am thinking over what I have learned. Good stuff.

So not much else going on just needed to say hey. Hey. Hollar. Later peeps.

Thoughts lately .....

Love is not easy. Being at a mission based church at first was hard. Knowing that you well love someone and then they well leave. I guess to love them enough to let them is the hard part. Still not my favorite. But I have come to realize that being part of the Kingdom does not mean my kingdom but God' s and that part is really wonderful. So the thought is to be encouraging and not to doubt God's plan.

School is fun. I think that I would have been horrible nerdy in school if I would have known how much fun it was. So I think I will just be a nerd now. Thank you Ginger for pointing my nerdiness out.

I think that I am glad I didn't make in concrete resolutions this year. I think they are like trying to keep the law you just can't. I like grace much more better.

Fear is something I never knew I struggled with until I learned to see my own sin more. Because fear is just unbelief. Not trusting God that He will take care of all things. My struggle with Zachary lately is really not him because he really is a great well rounded kid, it is my fear that I have messed up and that I have not prepared him enough to be independent of me. God will take care of him and I just need to pray and trust God. I will not be afraid. Okay I will try not to be afraid.

I think I would like 4 to 5 days on the beach this summer. That would be awesome. I love the beach it is my favorite. I know you envy my tan, don't hate. It is ironic that the palest person likes the beach so much but I do. I think it is because my Paw Paw took me ever year when I was young, good memories.

I think that 12 degrees is to cold and that I do not want to hear about global warming anymore. Have you noticed that they call it climate change now that it is not so warm. Media. Blah-blah-blah.

I think I will now go do laundry always need to do laundry.

Here we go.

Life goes so fast and I know when young people hear us old people say that they groan. But really life just flies by. Christmas has come and going again, and the New Year is upon us. I am trying to savor time a little more because I know it will be summer before long and another season will have past.

Time has been well spent this holiday break my honey has been off for two weeks and went back to work today. Other than a little traveling for the holidays we stayed home. It was really wonderful we got a lot of things done and we got a lot of lounging in too.

The kids go back to school tomorrow and they are vegging out today to make sure they are well rested. I think the other days of lounging just weren't enough. They have been pretending they were dogs this morning that are detectives. I know these funny times will not last forever but for now they are priceless.

So I hope we have a wonderful 2009.