Halloween Pictures!!!

Time changed?

Timed changed this weekend and every year when it changes in the fall I vow I will get up a little earlier because it really is early isn't it? I did get up early Sunday and got so much done and it felt great so I thought okay everyday could be like this I get up at 6:00am and cease the day!! But then I think it is so cozy in bed and warm and I don't want to get up just 5 more minutes. My Mom used to have a very hard time getting me up for school sorry Mom. Then poor Darrin could hardly get me up for work, but when he wasn't there I did just fine. Now I do get up between 6:30 and 7:00 which I think is pretty good, I remember the days when I could sleep until 9:00 or 10:00 now even if I try I can't sleep past 7:30. So I will try to at least be happier in the morning and get a little more done which I have gotten better at. So since I do get up earlier now maybe by next fall I will get up even earlier or maybe I'll just have a 5 year plan to get up earlier by say the year 2012 or maybe I'll just lay back down and rest a minute it is still a little early.

The never ending battle

The never ending battle of the scale I am right at this moment eating a granny smith apple it is so sour it hurts but I am trying to eat more fruit and trying to be super good with my eating I have been a little off track lately. I have been waging this battle since right after Eric was born and it has gone very well I have lost about 90 to 100 lbs wow I just wrote that down and I know it really is 100 but I have a hard admitting that I mean that is a whole person okay a really skin person but still a person. So during this times I try to stay focused on the big picture (no pun indented) and see how far I have came and that sometimes the obsession over losing more or even just maintaining is very time consuming and takes my focus off of everything. That is selfish right like I am the only thing that matters at all, but what if I lose a little of the focus and I feel so out of control with that if I am not in control I will panic. When I was heavier I was just as consumed with eating with getting my next "fix" and that was all that mattered to me. So like an addict I have now transferred my obsession to the other extreme that it interferes with my life as well. I wish I could just say I am never gone to eat again that would be easier like never drinking again but we have to eat. So I think okay God this is my challenge and he did give us taste buds so maybe we are supposed to enjoy food but not let it control us or control it. Like an addict the temptation is always there every get together, every birthday party, everyday so hopefully I can care enough to not care to much. So that I can focus on other things like family and church and reading my bible more because I know God loves me anyway but I know He wants me to focus on Him more than anything and if I am focused on food and not Him then that is sin. I hope I can improve that. I think that it is a sin like an other sin and I should look at it like any other sin. It's not special sin just plan old ugly sin.

Long week

It has been a really long week and so busy. I am very glad today is the last day of soccer for Eric. Zachary had his last game last night in Rainbow City. We had some very difficult directions and ended up not being able to find the place. Zachary was not a happy camper about it was hoping to get a goal this year the team only had 2 goals the whole season but he has definitely learned how to lose graciously. We saw Peter and the Wolf this week with the Alabama Symphony it was wonderful the kids liked it to. The play(Zachary is in) is this week and we are all very excited about it it is Thursday and Friday at 7:00 p.m. at CPC . Our first Community group is at our house this week very excited I love having people over and it has been a while since we have had a big crowed over. The house is very cleansed and that makes me happy even when people aren't coming over. Darrin help so that always makes it easier. Life is good and I am hoping it will slow down after next week. My Mom is also coming up this week for Zachary's play can't wait to see her it has been awhile and I miss her greatly. Off to the game go Eric. Also can't believe I have never mention before my insane love of the Crimson Tide so go Bama !!!! I haven't seen a game in 3 weeks I am going into withdrawals.